Dark foreboding clouds swirl over me, misery, pain, seething hate cloud my judgement at my every turn.
Black is all i see, nothing at the end of my tunnel but darkness awaits, misery, pain, anguish form a web throughout my senses,
Causing judgement and actions to be foreboding and dark.
Emotions are now turned off leaving a shell of numbness , uncaring, spite full contempt are left in place to form whats left of an outer shell of a once great man and father.
The future is more of the same, nothing shines for me only darkness and misery are my new light.
Like a lump of coal my life has now become useless , they say diamonds shine beneath the black foreboding dust of coal, but it seems my diamond has quit shining or was never to be in my future only dark flames flicker and as it burns so does my life going up in smoke!